hello everyone, after being silent for months, i'm back! yea. yesterday was social studies and i hope i did well. the source-based question was different from the past papers. nowadays source based question are getting tougher i guess. okay i would be having a one week break before the continuation of o'lvl which i'm left with my MCQ for science and done. (:

went home today and i borrowed Hairspray CD. it was a very nice CD. not only thin people can dance, fat ass people like me do too. haha. well, the purpose of today's post is directly not to talk about my daily lives and stuff but then to just have a little talk here. sometimes i think friendship is like a lottery. it's either you those good ones who will stay by your side or you get those bad ones. at times i remember the things we have once said: if you are not happy just say it right smack at the person's face. and whenver you are in need thats what friends are for.

but i just began to realise it was a total opposite. only when u are clever, preety and have status many will come and look for you. adoree you and want you to their best friends. but when you are down, not preety and no status. there you go. left stranded. where are your friends? god-knows-where-they-are. being backstab is nothing new to me. it's a normal things that human always does. well nobody is perfect, yea but we have to learn to amend our ways to make it right.

i just need a simple thing called an apology. yes. maybe you don't even understand the meaning of apology. maybe you only understand the word backstab, criticism. apology, is never in your dictionary. well i don't know. this magic word can really change the tense situation. just with that word. amazing things can happen within seconds. just the word of apology. but the rule is you have to say it with a sense of sincerity (:

i just don't need all these. i had enough during my primary school days. a total crap of bullshit. thanks i shuld say. i have really learn alot of lesson during my school days. all these was just a simple test. which i ever wants to see what was your reaction. everything was expected. i know when situation like this happens down goes the promises. i really thought you were all different. but in the end, you are the same. i do have a purpose for all these total crap. i hope to get this over. settle down. and have a peaceful mind. yes it hurts when people just don't understand your wants. & it hurts more when it's just someone that is really close to your heart. well its all proved then. now i realise that whenever you want to make a move eventhough it is small, u need to think alot of times.

till then, goodbye!

when all this can end with just a simple apology.
reflect. learnt. amend. (: